THINGS IN MY MIND

When I started doing my school, I used to spend time thinking or focusing on it. But just recently when my friend shared to me their situation I started thinking several things. I always heard about the global crisis... economic status. I haven't felt about being affected to it, great companies and businessmans are. As long as I am getting my fixed salary every month and I have felt satisfied of my life at the moment if only there is no tomorrow. I have shared this to my friend two days ago and I got different ideas. Sometimes I am dreaming what would I become in the next few years but I still don't know what will happen in the next few hours. HE only knows. My friends have told me that "In his time, He makes all things beautiful". The thought stucks in my mind and I can't understand the statement. Perhaps I was not close to Him last few months. I know that what my have told me has a deeper meaning, I just can't fathom.

My family is struggling from financial problem ever since. Biblically, that's not problem but practically, it is. This could the one of the reason why I want something different in the next few years. It really takes several years if He'll let me get there. As of now I still have something to eat - the proof of His providence. My friend had shared me about this agnostic idea. Maybe I am in that.

(I hate the music right now-very distracting... I'm gonna write something more about this soon)

I HAVE MISSED SOMETHING

I have mentioned in my previous post about the status of my life - work during the day and do school at night. Last two days, I got a phone call from the one I knew from Cebu City and asked me if I could visit their Computer Shop to do some troubleshooting job on Tuesday. It thought it was perfect; that was Tuesday and it's my day-off on the company where I am currently working. I still have classes at night that day but I was free during the day, so, I told her that I am coming. I was doing the maintenance in her shop 8 months ago. When I started school last 2nd semester last year, I resigned because I have thought that I couldn't handle it any longer with school. My schedules really bother me all the time. I have one subject in my class that Tuesday afternoon is the schedule. I thought it was perfect because it is day-off but I just got this another go-to-city every Tuesday for the job whom I rendered my resignation 8 months ago. At first, I have thought of my myself that I couldn't handle it anymore but the idea of grabbing the opportunity and do the simple job and get paid would help.... would really help. Here's what will be happening if I'll have to do decisions. It's either I drop my one subject and go to city every Tuesday or get my subject and don't go to city. So, I was there last Tuesday. 5 of 28 computers we're not working. I just completed 3 of 5, there's two left and I promised her of coming back next Tuesday which I am not really sure yet. (Whoever have read this, I really want your ideas, suggestions... etc. tia). I told her that I couldn't stay longer because I have classes on the night that day. I need to go back at 2:30. It's two hours bus ride. Sad thing I wasn't able to fulfill my plan. I left the shop at 4:00... and I have missed two (2) subjects. My plan's changed. We'll be having a quiz that night too at 7-9PM, so, I was really in a hurry. When I got in the room, the quiz has just started. Our quiz was really interesting. It was done by two ways - orally and written. Our instructor would choose five (5) student from us to do the quiz orally and the rest would do the written quiz. I was shocked when I entered the room, my instructor pointed me to do the oral quiz. I was not really comfortable that time. I am not really prepared but I still believed that I could do it. My instructor asked me how many question I want. I choose two. Good thing was I got the first question correctly but I wasn't really sure of my answer on the second question. It sounds strict but it's a great idea. Not just on doing quizzes but also on discipline and lots of rules: like turning your phone off when you are in class, wear name tags, bring with us the note our instructor provided, should be on time - if late for more than 10 minutes - it is equivalent of 1 absent and there's many more to mention. Well, it's not bad, in fact, I really like it. That's something that we need to learn even in just two hours but it could really help.

That's all for today.

I JUST APPRECIATE IT

I'm back. I wasn't able to update my blog regularly. There's a lot of thing to be written in here and share it with you but I was too busy last few months. I just started school and it's almost a month already. That's was funny when I first entered my classroom because, in majority, I am 4 years older than them. Of course, I am not in their level, my age proves it. Most of them called me "kuya". When I hear that word, I always feel like... yeah I am older than them. But I did not put too much emphasis in my age. I am learning how could I be friendly to them. I know one who is very talkative... she's a girl, my classmate and has a baby. She kept on asking me a lot of questions. Most peope who already knew me being silent most of the time and I admit that I am the one but last few weeks I've learned to start any conversation. So, I having fun learning how to be close to other people.

Last semester, there were subjects that I really loved - the Logic, that's correct reasoning from incorrect reasoning. Math subject is not new to me, even though I felt that it's hard sometimes but I enjoy them. Filipino, Chemistry will follow the list. But one subject that urges my mind to think was the Psychology. I really appreciated how our instructor teach us. I found some similarities with this to Logic. I always loved the idea of learning something new.

More about me. Well, we just moved from our current residence where free lodging offered to us and that was almost 4 years. My sister just started her high school here and she use to stay with us with my brother. So, we decided to move to another boarding house where we pay an amount every month. I really don't like the idea of staying somebody's house, it's a blessing however but as long as we are able to pay the monthly obligation, then we go for it. I can't imagine how life would be going. We, three, wake up in the morning, getting ready for work and school. During the night, I go to school. It seems like "no time for conversation". Everything is fine so far - no misunderstanding -- yet. It's always comfortable living in a place where we are paying for the lodge.

I'll cut it here, 'til next time.

MULTI-TASKING

I am have had trouble with my subjects last few days. I wonder what brought me this irritated thing. Two things that I am thinking right now - not motivated to study and laziness. I am not happy regarding the result of the test that we had last few days and I hate myself because of that. I always wanted to know new things but sometimes going back to the things that I've learned already is boring. There are some subjects that I got interested into but I can't put my mind studying the lesson - there is no PEACE in me; I am thinking so many things at one time. My mind is always in multi-tasking mode and that is very stressful. This is how I function in our workplace - as a cashier - our company is not fully organized yet, so we didn't assign individual to an specific responsibility; as a timer - responsible of taking records of time-in / time-out of customers' rentals; as an encoder or a typist - I think this is my main function but only few customers would let us do the typing jobs. Most people are learning to do the typing jobs by their own; as a computer technician - very interesting and I am still learning about it. I have attended training about PC troubleshooting but still, as the continuous innovation of technology, I need to upgrade my learning too - I called it a non-stop learning; as a graphic artist - I'm not an expert and still I am in the learning process. The abovementioned are enough proofs of multi-tasking. Of course, not all of those could be done at one time. Two or three could be done simultaneously.