Sunday, October 09, 2011

WHAT AM I DOING

Human beings strive for survival. Even everybody knows that everyone will die and afraid of it but still they are still fighting to survive. How people live in this world are patterned to the trend of this world. Specifically, according to our old  teachers, everyone should go to school. The idea of better living  have been taught in schools while  teachers are bench-marking ideas from great philosopher. Now, its been three years already that I am with this trend. The idea that "you can't get a better life if you do not go to school" caught my attention. This is the trend. Primitive people did not make this an issue long time ago but because of this trend I need to go with it, I don't want to live like those primitive people either.    


I love the idea that learning is fun. Although this idea has been taught throughout centuries, especially to children, it is encouraging that learning new things is always fun.  Psychologically, not all learning is positive. The idea to acquire new things  is positive, that makes learning positive. But if we try to consider moral connotation, learning may somehow become negative.  People could learn how to get along with other people and could make friends and somehow what people have learned from school were applied. Although some norms can easily be observe in the society, but mostly the concept on how individual behave in the society are being taught in school.  It is really interesting how learning have been molding individual through the institutional collaboration.  I have posted a blog regarding doing school that last three (3) years ago I was convinced to the idea that going to school wasn't necessary. I have never made a limitations on what God could really do. That time I've tried to rely on how God would lead me. It's really hard to understand God's will. And because everyday, I am exposed of committing sin, I begin to doubt if God would still lead me. He has promised to not leave me nor forsake me and even I have been unfaithful for too long, He will remain faithful. The idea on how Satan controlled this world is HUGE. Sometimes I cannot even detect of what I have done was not good. So, why I am on this trend? It's because I did not believe that He is able, that's all.  I still believe His existence and sovereignty and this guilt inside would try to grab me from drawing near to Him.  I have thought about fixing all these mess. Sometimes, the truth hurts. Total transformation hurts me and to other people. I really don't know where to begin and I still hoped that changes would take place one day. 

Thoughts about Covid-19

It has been a decade already since my last post and I miss posting some thoughts so much. A lot of things had happened since 2011 until I gr...