Sunday, October 09, 2011

WHAT AM I DOING

Human beings strive for survival. Even everybody knows that everyone will die and afraid of it but still they are still fighting to survive. How people live in this world are patterned to the trend of this world. Specifically, according to our old  teachers, everyone should go to school. The idea of better living  have been taught in schools while  teachers are bench-marking ideas from great philosopher. Now, its been three years already that I am with this trend. The idea that "you can't get a better life if you do not go to school" caught my attention. This is the trend. Primitive people did not make this an issue long time ago but because of this trend I need to go with it, I don't want to live like those primitive people either.    


I love the idea that learning is fun. Although this idea has been taught throughout centuries, especially to children, it is encouraging that learning new things is always fun.  Psychologically, not all learning is positive. The idea to acquire new things  is positive, that makes learning positive. But if we try to consider moral connotation, learning may somehow become negative.  People could learn how to get along with other people and could make friends and somehow what people have learned from school were applied. Although some norms can easily be observe in the society, but mostly the concept on how individual behave in the society are being taught in school.  It is really interesting how learning have been molding individual through the institutional collaboration.  I have posted a blog regarding doing school that last three (3) years ago I was convinced to the idea that going to school wasn't necessary. I have never made a limitations on what God could really do. That time I've tried to rely on how God would lead me. It's really hard to understand God's will. And because everyday, I am exposed of committing sin, I begin to doubt if God would still lead me. He has promised to not leave me nor forsake me and even I have been unfaithful for too long, He will remain faithful. The idea on how Satan controlled this world is HUGE. Sometimes I cannot even detect of what I have done was not good. So, why I am on this trend? It's because I did not believe that He is able, that's all.  I still believe His existence and sovereignty and this guilt inside would try to grab me from drawing near to Him.  I have thought about fixing all these mess. Sometimes, the truth hurts. Total transformation hurts me and to other people. I really don't know where to begin and I still hoped that changes would take place one day. 

Friday, February 11, 2011

AM I LIVING IN DIFFERENT WORLD & DECISION MAKING

Long time, no post. I was busy last few months. Actually, the company where I previously working was closed. The operation ended last December 2010. I'm lucky because I find another job which was related to my previous job. It was like starting a new beginning but I haven't feel any nervous because I am sophisticated enough about the field. So, that's about me and the current job that I am into.

One time I've asked this question to myself "Am I living in different world". I started comparing my life five (5) years ago. Sometimes I started to think that all those things in the past were only the part of the past. I kept on telling myself that I couldn't turn back the time. I could not even change the past. I could just say that five  (5) years ago was a different world and this current life that I am living is another world. Does it make sense? A lot of things have changed, me too. My perspectives about life was different from the perspectives few years ago. That's the fact that we couldn't deny - past is past.

I am graduating this March. I have been schooling for two years in college. For the last time, the school still offer the Associate Course, so I am graduating for an Associate Degree. Another decision-making would take place after  graduation, whether I proceed for the Bachelors Degree or I stop doing school and find a job. Maybe I could get the minimum requirement for applying a job - the Associate Degree but It would be much better if I could acquire the Bachelors. I don't know yet. Maybe I need some people to help me decide of what I am going to do. I am affected of some different aspects that I need to decide carefully. I know that everything that I am currently doing would affect my real self in the future.  Actually, I only  have one (1) year left. After this one (1) year I will be having my On the Job Training which is the requirement for getting the Bachelor. So, it would take two years for me basically. Let's see. 


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